duh wuh duh - date unknown

It’s awful that we’ve let things get this bad, and the only thing that is more terrible than that, is how much worse it’s going to get.

I can see the road ahead with such clarity, like nothing I’ve ever experienced before. 

I can tell you one thing, it is a horrible sight.

The darkness is always brazen with its plans.

The hubris it takes root in has no fear of us knowing its intentions.

It has no plan on losing to us.

That’s the problem with plans.

They’re meant to be undone by only the purest cleverness.

This is how men like me can keep walking into the lonely sunset.

This landscape of hopelessness.

It is because I know the impossible, can be done.

I know that even one man can claim victory over the armies of evil, and that is why men like me walk this path into the dark carrying the torch of our ruthless pursuit to prove it all wrong, no matter what the cost.

I’ll tell you, it’s a price we pay dearly and daily.

I’ve fought countless battles in the names of so many things, and at the end of all these days, none of it meant anything to me.

But this….

This, is something else.

This is me.

The struggle.

The Burden.

We carry these things like a camel, and even in the deepest of deserts we watch those around us shrivel and fade before we even break a sweat.

I know that there are too few out there willing to do what is right, and it is because I know this, that I have no choice but to pick up where the rest have left off.

My Best - Date Unknown

The best in myself is just that. 

My best.

If it weren’t for that, I’d be just as fucked as the rest.

I was lucky though, I came from good people who were sure to give me what I needed to get by out here.  The thing that I am carrying in myself is the best they had to give to the world.  And that is why I protect it with my life, because it is so much greater than all of us.  That seems to be the difference between us and them.  We are the ones who keep the good things alive, the things that are worth living for.  The rest?  They try to find power in something that isn’t real.  They are the ones who are doomed to destroy us every one of us in their futile quest to control it all. 

This is the great battle. 

The fight between the ones who die to keep something alive, and the ones who kill because they feel nothing for life.  It’s a fight that has been going on for longer than we’ve been around, and there’s no doubt in my mind it will wage on for long after we’re gone. But that doesn’t make our fight any less important, because we need every win we can get. 

I know that someday it will be over, and one of us will be standing on the right side.  Until then, the fight is on, and we press ahead hoping our faith is a better guess than theirs.  And hopefully when it’s the truths time to shine, he’ll shine on us.